Post twilight

Ya know it is kinda funny. During the movie, I hated it. It bugged me that while they used the lines from the book they used them at the wrong time. The meadow, need I say more? A whole bunch of other things bugged me too but while these things still bug me, it was an ok movie. Now that the dust has settled, I am seeing things a bit more clearly. I am even willing to see it again, to see if was as bad as the first time. The truth-tellin is this: The book, which is usually the case, was way better than the movie.

Zachary

I have not mentioned autism once in my blog because well it's difficult. I love my boy but he is, well difficult. SO many people believe he is "cured". I get the, "Gosh, Brandy, Zac is doing so good. It seems he has out grown his problems." At this point I can respond one of two ways. I can let them believe the lie because, well it's easy. It's not really a lie because he does have good times, but he will never be cured. This is who he is. The other way I can respond is with all the bloody, gory details that keep my stomach in knots. Depending on my relationship with said person depends on how I respond. Also if I'm feeling pissy they may get way more info than they every wanted. Here is what I'm willing to share at this point about how Zac is doing. EVERYDAY he threatens to kill one or more of us. He torments his siblings, what ever you are thinking in your mind times that by 1000. He abuses us, verbally & physically EVERYDAY. The above things happen on good or normal days. On bad days he does the aforementioned just intensified. The death threats are in GREAT detail, trust me you don't want to know the detail. He has temper tantrums. Oh Boy does he have temper tantrums. He will only scream and cuss and yell for 30 mins, but it is a VERY BAD 30 mins. At these times I think he is going to have to live sedated in a hospital. I think of UCLA and their padded room and the Dr.s with no answers and no hope. My stomach feels sick, but then he stops and we live to see another day. I share these things to give you knowledge about what life is like for us. He has come along way. We have a lot be grateful for. He is not "better" just "different". Right now he is calm watching TV. All Hell will break loose when the TV is off, but now life is good. So when you see us at a church activity, school activity, family function, or just at McDonald's you have a small idea of what we live with everyday, and how hard it is for us to be there. When we leave an outing, whatever it may be if there was not a problem with Zac we are so relived, but we know that any moment the problems will start usually when he doesn't get his way. The truth-tellin is this: Zac is a sweet boy who can spout scripture stories like a preacher, he is creative, social and will do something wonderful when he grows up.

Twilight {sigh}

Anyone who even knows me a little knows that I LOVE Twilight. My dear friend Cindy, who treats me better than I deserve brought me THE BOOK while I was in the hospital. It was exactly a year ago. She was all excited, not because I had just given birth to another beautiful baby. Her daughter had just met a crazy guy, who we thought was adorable. She showed me a picture on her phone and recapped all the cute first moments of their life. {side note: the budding love is now blomming with an offical engagement and all the sappy love that comes with it}. Then she said and I quote, "you HAVE to read this book!" I said, "OK". Then she said, "I hope you love it." Now, Cindy and I have differed on books before, but usually she has good stuff. So I said "What if I don't?" then came they reply, "You WILL LOVE THIS BOOK and I am going to go now so you can start reading it." Well, I had a calm baby and plenty of pain meds and Justin had stepped out to grab a bite so I started to read. Then came the interruptions: the nurses kept bugging me, Justin had gotten back and was trying to chat, I had to pee, not to mention all the problems with bleeding, and big boobs. So I was a little crabby. All I wanted to do was hold my baby and READ. When I was done with the book, I read it again and again. Now flash to present day. Well I am reading Twilight again. Just shush and listen. I had to reread it so I am well armed with evidence to discredit the movie. I am going to see it, thanks to Cindy who is treating me since the Scott family is having budget cuts. I am uncertain of this movie and hold ZERO expectations. I think Edward looks like a dufuss and Bella is ok, but she just isn't the Bella in my mind. The truth-tellin is this: VERY rarely are books that become movies any good, but the truth-truth tellin is this: I need to see this movie because I am a sucker for a good love story even if I don't want to admit out loud that I like vampires better than shape shifter wolves (AKA werewolves).

Spolied

"Hey mom I saw this cool experiment on Mythbusters. All you need is mud, tap water and a bowl. I know where to get the mud and bowl, but do you know where I can get tap water? I've never heard of it before. Do you think you can buy me some?" The truth-tellin is this: Kids today have it WAY to easy.